Okay so I am running out of ideas, especially when I forget and it is a quarter to twelve at night, but the fear doesnt go away by just doing something once.
So last night I meditated again, once more focusing on my breathing and sitting upright on my bed with my back against the wall. And how was it? It was really good this time, it made me feel very relaxed and my body slackened into sleep mode. This was useful as i needed to sleep and had 10 hours. And it was easier this second time, things are always easier when you repeat them. And it is off my not-to-do list and on my to-do one!
Well, I had 3 days where I didnt do it but as you can see I am back on track now. I was scared to continue with it as I was thinking about it too much, it had become sado-masochistic! The thought of deciding to do something fear-provoking each day was getting me down, so i have decided to take control of it and be easier on myself, but still keep going!
That's all for today, over and out.
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